My journey.....

I have struggled in life with low self-esteem. Because of that it once affected my marriage. I was not trusting. I had negative thoughts all the time. Negative thoughts were so part of me, that it started to play a hard role on our marriage. With the stress of my husbands school, along with my negative thoughts and reactions, we struggled. My husband tried to talk to me, but at that time my mental state was not clear. I thought that all he was talking to me about was what I was doing wrong. I took everything as an attack. Eventually it pushed my husband from me and he began to want someone else. This was the lowest time in my life. I felt nothing but dispair and loneliness.

Then I started my transformation...... For the first time in my life I fasted. I prayed not for myself, but for my husband. I also prayed for myself to be transformed. I asked God to be my sculpture, because I was his marble. I became so deep in connecting with God, I could hear him talking to me. But it wasn't just me he wanted to transform. I had to bring my husband closer to God. I was his voice to my husband.

The power of prayer is a mysterious and powerful thing. I had to change my negative thoughts, because I was worth it. I had to fight the devil. The harder I fought the devil the hard he tried to fight against me. But I won.

Changing the negative thoughts is the hardest thing to do. But it can be done. Not worrying about things that you can't change is hard. But it can be done. Knowing that you are worth so much and that you are priceless in the heart of God is empowering.

I have to work on my thoughts everyday. But my marriage is saved and is more wonderful now then it has ever been. My health is improved. I know that I am loved.

I was a catepiller and I have transformed into a butterfly.